Wow has this summer flown by. A trip to Texas with my mother, grand kids in and out each week, news of my son's impending marriage, our beloved pastors returning to the mission field, and our fledgling church suspending services. Car break downs, frustrating moments, an ill and aged uncle passing away under stressful and unpleasant circumstances has served to make me a depleted, anxious and emotional wreck. How I hate to admit this. How I wish I could be writing about the strength of God I turned to in this season and yet.... The truth of the matter is I did turn to God and am quite sure that had it not been for HIS ever present strength, grace, love and stability I would be in so much worse shape. Don't get me wrong, I shouldn't sound like it was all stressful with no joy, fun, etc. There were moments that were most rewarding and filled with joy, but I cannot escape the shape I am in right now and I know God is at work in me. This I know is a good thing. Though hard, good.
This has been an extremely challenging summer, one which I was not anticipating. I sit at this writing and wonder what exactly was I anticipating? Had I even thought ahead of time what this summer might look like? No, in fact like so much of my life it came on fast and didn't slow down, but picked up speed and before I knew it I was in the flow and couldn't get my feet down to stop, but just had to ride it out. I would never consider myself as someone who didn't have a handle on things, but this summer it seemed as though I was a spectator watching everything around me. I know, I have issues. Perhaps this is God's way of forcing me to see some of them. I am willing Lord.
I am working at reflecting on all of the above and hope in the coming days will have something to write down, "Heart Thoughts about why this happens to me." I am certain I am not alone. Hopefully in the writing there will come some clarity.
Holy Spirit of God I pray you will reveal to me in these next days, weeks, months your mind and help me to understand and to change that I might glorify you in all that I do.
Peace!!
This has been an extremely challenging summer, one which I was not anticipating. I sit at this writing and wonder what exactly was I anticipating? Had I even thought ahead of time what this summer might look like? No, in fact like so much of my life it came on fast and didn't slow down, but picked up speed and before I knew it I was in the flow and couldn't get my feet down to stop, but just had to ride it out. I would never consider myself as someone who didn't have a handle on things, but this summer it seemed as though I was a spectator watching everything around me. I know, I have issues. Perhaps this is God's way of forcing me to see some of them. I am willing Lord.
I am working at reflecting on all of the above and hope in the coming days will have something to write down, "Heart Thoughts about why this happens to me." I am certain I am not alone. Hopefully in the writing there will come some clarity.
Holy Spirit of God I pray you will reveal to me in these next days, weeks, months your mind and help me to understand and to change that I might glorify you in all that I do.
Peace!!
That's not a picture of Texas...that has to be Hawaii with the black rocks leading into the sea...No?
ReplyDeleteYes you got me. It is a picture of Hawaii. Forgot my camera on the trip to Texas and thought this a pretty peasceful scene.
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